If only I could love you and kill you at the same time...

Okay.. as of the moment I'm eating my favorite dish.. tofu. Sadly I have been unable to taste anything I eat lately.

I've been feeling ill for a few days now, it's painful but hey, I told my dad that I wanted a check-up, but noo... he goes "wala yan... nalamigan lang yan.." and all those other shit.

Well I thought that I just lacked sleep... so I do nothing but sleep now. It didn't help at all... now I feel more ill and no matter what I Do... it's just there. The ever so faithful headache that's been lounging about in my head, the sudden feeling that I'm about to lose my balance, the feeling wherein I feel like I'm floating, the sudden black outs..

This dismissal I was walking towards the gate, I felt the back of my head throb and my eyes lost focus... everything I looked at seemed to whirl... Well I tried hard to stand straight and act like nothing's happening. Thank god for a strong body... well sort of..

MURAKI, and BEYONCE *blows a kiss at nothingness* I adore you.. *muah*

Okay, this week has been even more like hell than usual.

Saturday : Went to AOI.. cosplayed Paine, YuRiPa was a hit again... got all genki with Die and the gang, glomped Lan like crazy, got beaten up by my daddy, cried like crazy, pointed a gun at my head and it got me thinking...

"I wanna die beautiful... exercise and derma muna..."

Monday to Tuesday : went to school.. late again... got all lurky and my patience almost snapped,quizzes, missed my quiz in science...gaah.. I didn't want to go home and stayed in school a bit longer...

Wednesday : a friend of mine brought her pretty girlfriend along... and I was in pervert mode... I grabbed the collar of the girl's shirt and smack.. *muah!*... she was such a turn on.. XD

Thursday : Nothing much happened... I pretty much got through the whole day, with the thought of creole and grey getting married... Rare mental pictures... XD

Friday : Sir Ben was absent and I ish sad.. T__T Also Sir Del Mundo was wearing an odd shirt that somehow reminded me of those Magic Eye thingies... I got so distracted by his shirt that I was unable to listen to his boring lecture.

Saturday : Spent the whole day at my grandpa's house... and I actually ate! wow... Hanged out with my cuz... a 4 year old boy named Noah, who is just so adorable, or rather... sort of baby-sitted him for the price of being able to watch movies non-stop..

Okaay... I'm still addicted to Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow... eek! I like his type. XD Dunno why... hell.. >_<

I guess that would be all... no tests this time.

Okaaay... so what's new with my life.

first, I am having what Azreal says is a Toreador Syndrome towards someone, she says go with the flow and see what happens. I'd choose not to, but the thing is, Azreal is always right... So baah...

second thing, AOI will commence on the 20th of September, this saturday, cosplaying Paine..

3rd, starting to get obsessed with Ragnarok.

Honestly, I really have nothing much to say here right now. Hm... I've been having dreams of the same person over and over and over... at first the scenes are happy, then suddenly, the scene changes completely and the person gets killed. Azreal told me not to think about it much... but hey I'm losing sleep because of it.

This person is haunting meh.. gaah... I hate him. (Do I now?) XD

Oh well, Muraki-sama Ai shiteru!